Oh, May. It was Buffy and I was Spike. I just couldn’t get the groove right. I’ve been struggling with some personal issues and have been physically sick for about a week now. Not that the virus prevented me from success the other weeks of the month; but, it didn’t help.
How did I do? Well, if we were in an academic setting I would be a failure.
Play Daily = 83 percent
Pick Guitar Back Up = 9 percent (ouch!)
Get Back on Motorcycle = 29 percent (double ouch!)
Get My Groove Back = 48 percent (probably better than most, I suppose)
Play Daily was successful because I could fit in even 30 minutes of an activity that felt like play to me. I also tried to be more playful with my children. I didn’t feel much success there, save occasionally with my 12-year-old, because they are all very serious teenagers right now. Therefore, Mom being playful is just fodder for embarrassment. But I tried. For that I feel grateful and successful.
The Guitar. Every time I had a moment, it wasn’t a good moment for the household – homework going on, my special-needs kid was home and needing my attention, or the dog decided she wanted to dig up the transplanted rose bush. You name it, I was interrupted. But I watched some videos and hammered away some, realizing that the guitar I own is too big for me to learn on. I might need to borrow my daughter’s little one. So then I thought I’d try the ukulele, which my daughter seems to think is hers now – although it truly belongs to my hubby. Will I perhaps revisit this later this year or for 2014? You bet your booty.
Get back on the Motorcycle. I did well. I studied. I watched my “riding like a pro” video. But, I didn’t actually get back on the bike. Mine is an antique and it needs a new starter. We haven’t been able to find one, at least not without it costing more than a c-note. Ouch. We need to take a day trip to a motorcycle junk yard. But, I’m ready and my hubby is very excited that I’m ready to get back to riding. The near accident on I-90 with the flying debris, I guess troubled me more than I thought. That plus bike repairs kept me off two wheels for an entire season. More ouch. I did get back on my manual bike, though, too. I didn’t count that, but if I did the percentage would be higher to 50 percent; might have been more if the weather wouldn’t have been so wet this month.
Get My Groove Back. I’m realizing that the pain I suffer with every day from my Army Daze injuries is great. I mean, I knew it was bad, but it keeps me from feeling my best a lot. Couple that with some other issues that arose this month, and, well, I’m getting a big fat F.
Now my grade-point average, as it were, this month is not fabulous. But when you fail, you learn. And I’ve learned that if I want to accomplish these things, it’s going to take me more than a month. Playing is a part of life; but, for decades I’ve been concentrating on work, and let’s be honest, being a parent is the hardest job of all. So, correcting the imbalance is not going to take a simple month. Even getting in what I did get in – giving myself permission and allowing it to be a focus lowered my stress level (I cannot emphasize enough how high my stress level is…) and increased the involuntary smiling on my face.
However, I’m excited for June, better health and better weather: Also excited for the focus of Connections. But, as it happens, I have a few connections to make this morning and therefore have to cut this short and will have to post later about June’s goals.
How did you do in May? What are your goals in June? Let’s chat, have a little fun and connect. 😀